My entire life I've known that I wanted to be a mom. I started to babysit friend's and family's children at a pretty young age. I worked at my church's Sunday school in the nursery so parents could go to church. My Aunt and I were just talking about how when I was only 14 years old, she left her week old baby with me so she could get out of the house. The only reason I bring this up is because I've been good with kids, I've wanted kids, hell, I've studied kids my entire undergraduate. I felt prepared, despite not preparing, for my babies.
At first I made it my mission on the December 2019 board to fight the negative people right back. A mom would ask an innocent question like "My baby isn't sleeping well, should I add a feeding before bed?" Simple enough, right? Then it would be comment after comment of... "You're overfeeding your baby! Do you want him to be obese?" "Babies aren't supposed to sleep yet! Quit complaining!" "Bring him to the pediatrician right away! He shouldn't be eating that much!" I mean, seriously? If you have even the smallest bit of anxiety, you can bet your ass this poor mom was panicking.
I know this time is fleeting and soon enough Lincoln will be in elementary school and no doubt, form on his own, naturally made friend group, but now is when I need adult interaction to ask about infancy and the struggle it brings with it. You're never quite as lonely as you are when you're first bringing that newborn home. Where are you supposed to make these friends anymore? Especially during a nationwide shut down?
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